Tuesday, September 30, 2008

心理不平衡啦!

每次visit别人的部落
我都会觉得

我少了童年
连teenage也少了

闷死人的生活
我到底是怎样挨过去的阿?

我今天很不爽
好啦人家不要决定东西又死逼人家决定
人家决定了你又不要啦!
以后你休想我决定什么啦!
我的答案永远就是随便随便随便拉!

不要问我意见啦!
我就只有跟从的命!
做么要生我出来?
你去买一个robot来养更好

他没有意见没有欲望什么都没有
你叫他做什么他就做什么
又不会顶嘴
几乖?

很讨厌啊!

你不会设身处地为人家想想啊?
帮下人会死啊?

我要出去玩啦!
整个杀人犯酱!
入狱终生啊?

Jay Chou 稻香

nice song with meaningful lyrics
hope u enjoy it
=D

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

一年后

一年前的那个感觉
还记得当时看见路口点着的蜡烛
纸皮上写着罗氏xxxx...
心里的惆怅

和蔼可亲的大伯伯
他的笑容
还浮现在脑海里

记得当时
伯母还在医院
不知情的她
梦到大伯伯把她抱去一棵大树下

现在
大伯母去找伯伯了

以后的清明节
再也没有算盘子吃了~

他们
一个接一个
走了

安息吧!
=)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

xP

haha i know it's abit too much but i still hv things to say...
anyway i already recover from the mood downturn...

today my college frens asked me out for movie tonight
i replied i think i cant bcoz of the gal kena 撕票
and then explain lar my parents wont let me go de...
although i din ask my parents i dun dare to put hope in it anymore so better say cannot rather than ask for permission.
because disappointment is always caused by hope.
i always cant accept the word "NO" from them.

and my frens asked me
"how old are you?
usually i just inform my parents that im going out.
never ask for their permission anymore."

haha...
so irony...
i duno how to answer...

then i threw my bag saying
yalar very bushuang them bla bla bla
then talk alot of nonsense which can be heard by the whole class
coz teacher havent come yet ma so we can talk as loud as we can
and im not those gal hv to talk soft soft smile cannot show teeth tat kind
so talk loudly la xP

after all my fren saw there's a plastic bag of foods.
then ask me duno wat
i say i buy it for my mom de....
my mom like yam cake ma...
the yam cake selling here very delicious de...

she say im very funny just now say very angry my parents but then i buy food for them.
halo im very rational one ok i just dun like tat particular thing only doesnt mean i angry them laaa
hahahah i know i always overact and make u all think i really really angry coz i really throw my bag with quite a large force xP
haiyo u all should know how strong are my arms tat kind of thing jz sap sap sui need a little bit energy ni xD
but actually after erm....48 hours i can take it again de...
i just love to express things in a hyperbolic way xP

btw amitabha my someone went travelling dy.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

最后的疼爱
是手放开

求你

emo-ing

原来呀
除了那些可恶的新闻
还有一些可恶的嘴巴
在跟我妈报告新闻
真的是xxx...

我表姐的朋友
因考试不能带电话
把电话拿去车放

结果
手被砍
进医院

我不可怜他
我可怜我

我的朋友每天出去都平安回家
表姐每天跟人家出去追星
又不见她有事?
又不见她妈不给他去?

是时候
让我出去闯了

当孩子开始有了自己的思想
不要再去抹杀他了

我真的给足你们面子
够尊敬你们了
你问下我多少个朋友
在父母不同意的情况下溜出去玩
溜出去yumcha溜出去酒吧溜出去camp
你要我成为下一个吗?

林宗勇yer什么?

Saturday, September 20, 2008

love does hurt

a boo...
that girl of dunno wat age kena 撕票 none of my business ok?
everyday oso got social ills laaaaaaaaaaa tat means i have to stay home everyday?!?!?!

xiaoness....
xiao man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xiao......

kill all the news reporter
and fire all the kilang publishing newspapersss
then only u let me go out is it?

it will be so nice if you report all bullshit in the newspaper other than social ills and politic instability
it kills our freedom
kills our teen age
kills me
x_x

my teen age is not fun at all
sad case
-.-

i dun like it
can somebody volunteer to let me bite?
argh i still cant stand it even i already went through this for years...

you know
when u say no, i will not go against it no matter how i hate it
that's because i respect you,
i understand the reason why u dun allow
but why cant you let me go?

真的很刺耳
当他们说
“你妈给你出咩?”

心理不平衡
想飞

你知道为什么我每次去那里都很迟回吗?
因为那是唯一一个我被允许
自己去的地方

我宁愿在那里待
给自己一个假想
骗自己我已经自由了

我多么想
自己出去走走
你们明白吗?

每一次离开
我都好想驾去
不是回家的路

始终没有
任性地跟着我意愿去
还是乖乖地往回家的路驶去

可你们
有站在我的立场想想吗?

枷锁
可以放松一些吗?

有时候
爱是一种束缚

Thursday, September 18, 2008

=)

在我的白纸上涂上色彩
加油啊!!

我需要人帮我分配时间
罗思睿你得空吗?

哈哈我知道你超不得空
我记得form 5你帮我做时间表哦!
多希望我是doraemon变罗思睿出来帮我

罗思睿的思旁边有个单人旁
xP

wei得空我告诉你我需要做的东西你帮我schedule一下啦
谢谢!
hahahahaha....

sien arh快快找一天出来聚一聚!
都是美丽的回忆
=)

):

取舍取舍
能舍才能得?
我该舍哪个?

I REALLY FEEL BAD!!!
no other choice?
i shud have asked.
=(

Hate to make decision especially when it brings in some feelings.
Since i start schooling, i think my parents shape me into a student who let classes come first before anything else. No skipping classes even it's only tuition class. Even when we went genting highland also fly back for tuition, provided it's slim tuition larh... even my grandpa passed away i also have to go tuitions first... i rmb tat day was howyip's birthday... their gang celebrated in saimun's place... i went saimun and slim tuition before going to grandpa's funeral... i rmb i still can concentrate in class because it's already predicted that my grandpa will pass away soon. even form 5 no teacher teach i'm also among the few students who go to school to waste time there.... they just dun let me to skip class... i rmb bro skipping lorh i tell u my memory become damn excellent when it comes to this kind of things hahaha....

tat's why i dislike ms eileen making me miss so many classes, account class and macro class. sh*t her.... but the problem now is nothing with her... so throw her aside first... lol tell u all i become class rep of the tutorial class under the lecturer i hated most... who cares? i damn pro lorh i can work with ppl i hate one lorh... u wanna try?? nolarh i dun hate u... ahaaa... xP omg diverge abit i really hate anson i really wish time flies like 1 second equals to 45 minutes i hate u to the max i tell u i havent come across such an *sshole like you. hahahaha sickening hyperactive kiddo get away from my life!! make me feel like bursting into a great devil and cekik u to death muahahaha... i love to say bye bye to you larh fren... okok pro abit.... hahahaha....

i really need a counselor now.
i really have to make a decision.
is there another choice???????
shoot larhhh.....

SINCE WHEN MY PRIORITY CHANGED???
I FEEL REAL BAD.
ESPECIALLY WHEN IM THE ONE WHO.....
ARGHHHHH.....
HELP ME!!!!
GUAN YIN MA SAVE ME PLEASE Xp

Monday, September 15, 2008

camp

i had fun,but got to admit that i had too much expectation

we missed the flying fox!!!!! but i like the high ropes and low ropes.... it's kinda fun but i hope it can be more exciting hehe... i had not enough fun larh wei i know im very greedy xP i din bring camera to take photo but i think mr alex had some photos for us. the group photo need someone who wear dress. when nobody wear dress and i wore a long T..... they just come in a big group and pull my T here and there-.- i just scream to make them stop hahahaha... thx to mr alex too. halo cant i pull myself y u pull my T?

all of us just love the moon which had helped us in the solo drop. i actually sung "moon light round" and "fireflies" in the darkness. i wonder why shermann ask me is it that someone pass by me. i said yes just not to scare him but i really din see or feel someone passing by me during the solo drop. it's just me walking here and there in between the guys. but i swear i really din walk till i see shermann lorh... he say he saw a white trousers guy passing by him worh... im a gal wearing jeans and i din pass by him=.=" hope he really saw human larh... it's really not scary at all because there's fireflies and i actually can hear the cars flying by along the highway. got ambulans somemore very zhadou... the guide scare us say what it's borderline with kampung orang asli bla bla bla... the orang asli are actually the drivers driving along the road eh? i believe that forest really got those things but i also believe that u all wont get us into dangerous place lorh... thou it's quite boring in the forest it still teach me something valuable =)

and the sky in trolak is decorated with many starsss... =)

the first night, they said they're staying until late night at the 2nd night. but when time come they sleep earlier than the first night which make me n mel kinda =.= so went to guy's room to play chor dai di, bullshit and murderer game. and i get the name "di hao" -.- im not di hao just their skills not that good lorh... of coz i wont tell what cards i have right if not how to win oh...
when i play with leconte and kelly i only win 2 rounds in 1 and half hour! so damn kesian wei....

overall i love camp
and clap clap clap i get more mosquitoes bite in home than in trolak =.=
i only get 1 or 2 bites in trolak but once i got home and sleep, waliao the mosquitoes wake me up with humongous amount of bites.. mommy say we become salty after coming back from camp
what bad assumption is this?? it's that i din put on mosquito repellent at home larh xiao... i had triple protection there coz i really hate mosquito bites bluek. if it still bites the factory producing mosquito repellent should go bankrupt dy...

the only thing im not very satisfied with is that our plates are on the dirty table clothes that didn't change for 3 days, with cats gems here and there on the table clothes. the cats there are just desperate for food they climb up to the table to grab food from you=.= hope that they bathe larh... sorry that most dog lover dislike cats. and the lame reason i dislike cats is that i always think they will use their sharp nails to scratch me. although dogs got sharp nails too but i just think cats are 不定性...

i love camp!!!
and it became the days im most happy being with college friends.
i never felt so happy and cheerful when im under "hmc population".

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

duh duh

我跟 miss eileen 八字不和啊!!!
气死

妈妈说要爱惜自己

Monday, September 8, 2008

=I

sorry to be rude
but these words really come into my mind today
that is

i totally dun understand this old woman
who thinks she's flexible when she's totally not
stone ancient not digested!
-.-

spoilt half or my learning time.
spoilt my mood
this is what we call generation gap

i dun like to miss lesson ok
and the bloody, shitty rotten shit
why is there so many public holiday this semester?
public holiday sucks -.-

sorry that im difficult to contact
sorry i will try to change

ktm is the most cacat public transport i ever have for transportation
lol today the two teenagers beside me is sleeping all the way
i wanted to sleep too im too sleepy waiting for ktm up to 30 minutes
which i can get home in 30 minutes if i drive/tumpang fren's car
but i worry i will be another one who will smack my hand on my forehead when i wake up
haha therefore i stay awake until i went home and hv a nap to forget my "mood downturn" today

don't u think that we just have different principle in life?

moody time is over
now is sleepy time

lol i spent half of the time of another class
thinking where is my statistics notes when i actually borrowed it to giraffe
i thought i left it somewhere that i have to re copy all my notes the 3rd time
it causes a "mood recession" weee...

tau fu fahhhh
smooth like ur ssa punya taufu fahhh
i want indian ssa, but she gif me western ssa instead
anyway i still enjoy it.

duo mei li de tau fu fahhh
duo ke ai de tau fu fahh

rojak is nice isn't it

im looking forward to go for camp
camp camp camp
now only i know there's bunjee jump yeahoooo~

grrrrrrrr the only thing i'm worry about is the bloody mosquitoes...
they say the mosquitoes there are big and fat and sucks.
in the sense that they suck blood okay i dun mean to use invectives.

pray hard that no rain plsss i wanna play!!!!!
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recently,
my schedule is kind of combination of pack and loose.
im wasting my time despite having alot of things to do
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ahaa i've never been to night market for a very long time
i never even went to kepong baru night market for my entire life.
and the beautiful today.....

4-5pm in the afternoon
i havent hv any food since i wake up this morning
but my family hv had their lunch
so i drove to shop area in maluri to see whether gt anything to fill the emptiness in the pit of my stomach.
after that go night market for a walk lorhhh

weeee
i saw him
too bad/too good im having a phone call
so we just smile to each other signaling "Hi =)"
till now i nvr regret for wat i've done
sometimes imperfection is the best method to leave things to be beautiful when we reminisce to the past...
=)

curious for wat i've done?
wat i did is i did nothing xP
i swear i din lie
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i like yellow more than pink okay
and like purple more than pink too
but purple look quite old water xP
so i like yellow more...

it's jz tat things i bought is nice in pink bah
so dun make any assumption tat i like pink anymore -.-
i like black clothes!!!
so cool erhhhh

i luv to act cool infront of others
muka busuk busuk
but actually my heart is yellow muahahaha
shiny sunny day
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she say i shudn't act like a baby anymore
exactly same as wat my mom said
who ask my mom let me act like baby when im a baby?
if i act like an adult when im a baby,
den of coz now i act like an adult larhhh
wakaka~
lame excuse.

im just too used to it marhhhhh
okok i change i shudn't act like a baby=.=
why baby? act like a kid sounds better=.=

of coz i dun act like baby infront of peers.
ok i got 多重人格 but i dun care.
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i tell u!!!!
书到用时方恨少
sobx
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i thx him and her for giving me many opportunities
i duno how to show my gratitude
tolerate my "0 social skills" pls
i only know how to show things in my heart=.=

i really dislike my poor social skills
i feel embarrassed when frens come n find me
but i got nothing to entertain them
the thing is that i think bullshitting has no meaning
tat's y i duno how to crap
tat's y i rather be alone
i dunwan u to feel boring
but of coz sometimes i do crap

and friends-.-
my first priority is still family
but my mom is jealous of sheruey n caiyi lol
mommy im going to give u a thing, hope u like it
but not so soon ok just wait until it comes
i hv to do some financial planning first

talk bout money...
my bank "pua kang liao" mommy lent me few hundreds to buy stuff.
she insist that i use my own money.
she said i nvr spent wat i earned last year -.-
everytime use the same sentence how much is my wages last year ouh?
i think it's all used up lorh since u're repeating this sentence for uncountable times
i was just working for one month leh dun forget.
oklar i buy my own stuff i use my own money larh
no wages still got angpau marh
leave money in bank is in vain when we go to the heaven right?
i know i understand ok i spend my own money
hopefully it will be heaven

so viyi, i wont ever expect my parents to giv me a thousand per year for me to go for shopping
i know it SEEMS reasonable
but it's a lot for me, alot lot more for my parents haha...

i go shopping not up to 20 times a year, mayb (i dun really count)
and they spent alot of money on me.
it's enuf lorhhh...
i cant ask for more.
we must be satisfied of what we have right?
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the last part is not so beautiful
i think that our hearts depart
i cant feel any sparkle in between us anymore
i know that both of us are getting busy with our own stuff

do u notice?
whenever u sms me, whenever u find me
it's already not much communication yet(some text missing)
and the bloody blood make our conversation stick on the same topic everytime we talk
i just dun like things to go in this way

ppl, this is nothing to do with tat love u think but the love i think
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weee due to absenteeism no slim class tis week
and the camp next week make me not going to slim lesson again
sorry slim the camp is a compulsory,
bluekk
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weiii i love to play this kind of things rather than staying in an office larh
gt any job in this field arh?
bt i dun like to socialize lolx.

i wanted to be 导游
cuz i like to travel
like to see ppl's culture
like to see different things
but must we study geography???
must we memorize??
actually it's the memorizing that make me not to choose tat field hehe
mayb i work as accountant in travel agent company
then the company will bring their staff for traveling once a year
wow~ nice nice
my dream is always nice haha
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miserable sem 3 and my colourful life
let's end it in peace
good night!!
^^

james,
read and place comment at shoutbox if u want
dun need to repeat things i mentioned here just to let me know u read my post
thx.

and thx all for visiting

Thursday, September 4, 2008

ktm

不是要投诉ktm什么~
坐ktm,就要预了班车延误~

最近
发觉很多人,尤其是我们这些年纪的
很喜欢在ktm里面睡觉,
睡得真香,过了目的地也不知道~

我哥是一个好例子
他说十分钟去载他
结果等很久一下
原来他睡着过了站,再搭车回kepong...

上次我坐在一个女子旁边
她手上拿着票睡觉
我原本想偷看她要什么站下车
可她的手遮着了看不到
我就不要那么多管闲事咯
结果她一醒来就问我到什么站了
seilorh 我鬼懂什么站哦?
我只是认kepong,mid valley和kl central的车站罢了咯
其他的我不懂的咯
还好刚刚好想听到播报员说bank negara,
就说过了bank negara....
哈哈那个女的她把自己的手打在自己额头
然后冲出去~
我连拜拜都来不及说

今天呢
我又搭车回啦
很有趣的,你问我今天怎样回?
我必须回答
我搭bus,lrt,ktm还有妈妈的车咯~
一天里面坐完那些交通工具~
除了motorbike...

又看到有人睡觉
他睡到真的很香
我又不敢叫他醒来
万一ktm是他最好睡的地方
我叫醒他真的很不道德
没有睬他,下车~
看到soonyee,在对面读书
淋雨,回家

喜欢今天的雨
很refreshing...
虽然它可能是杀我头发的酸雨
迟点大家都变botak head...

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

xP

笑死自己
笑死我自己

我竟然打电话给自己
自己接自己拨出去的电话

话说,
现在的主角,是三个手提
我自己的,妈妈的 A 和 B
她最近把里面的号码调换了

酱我不知道嘛
妈妈出去了,我用我的手提拨电话找她
拨去她016的号码...
结果正好妈妈放在家里的A响哦!
我就想说妈妈那头没那么快接电话,我就先接A...
看一看,是hui打来...
hui是谁?不知道,接了才算

结果我接了电话A“哈喽?”
两个电话同时发声,我把自己的电话拿开,
再一次“哈喽?”

没人回应....
我开始
觉得不对劲

哈哈哈哈哈
给爸爸骂蠢
想象一下
你自己拿着两部手机自己跟自己讲话
而且自己是hui都不知道
xP