=x

i remember...
there's once or twice or thrice or infinite time,
i hated it that much,
i cried over it, upset over it
i swore that i will never become a _____ _______

lol
it ends up the other way round.

people,
nothing is definite in this world.

i'm super duper ultra busy
and she somemore tell me that i must start now
i want to delay, but it's the golden opportunity~
two choices provided,
grab it or let it go~
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

7th of august,
so near yet so far....

for ppl who are curious over wat had happened,
i MAY tell you when time come.
=P

but there's two special one,
they can get the answer
=D

晒命

我真的很忙很忙很忙
明天早上有钢琴课------这个礼拜完全没有练琴

星期五---枪战？
星期五的恐怖presentation还没准备好，
就是说星期三星期四都要把全部时间放在CTS.

星期六---考英文和历史
我的天！历史~
认识我的人都懂，我跟历史无缘~
虽然现在只需要对18题就可以pass了~
可是还是没把握~


星期日---violin class!!!!
omg 放假一个礼拜什么都没有练到！
救命啊！

星期一---critical thinking 考试！
妈妈！我不想要retake这些很恐怖很恐怖的东西
我很喜欢miss winnie, 可是我不要再上她的课了！
我不要!!!!!!!!!!
group assignment好像做到很差，
group presentation应该也会不理想~
@.@ #.# X.X

星期二---business....
有五课，一课都还没读完

星期三---microeconomic
三课，一样没读到

很stress up,
还是想要告诉你们，

我昨天超有食神的~
早上吃viyi的爱心早餐
晚上吃sheruey的爱心sushi
有够幸福~~~~

SEM 2 SUX!!

mommy wake me up with laughter =D

woke up with laughter....
laugh and laugh and laugh....
bcoz mommy found out that i got 2 tahi lalat on my body....
in which she got it in the same place toooooooo!!!!

ahahahahahahaha
i cant stop laughing...
brother oso got a birth mark on his lap,
but the birth mark has only same shape but different place on mom's body.
last time i wonder why i dun have the birth mark @@

hahaha mommy got different ways to prove that we're from the same kilang~~
XD

回函

林：
如果人那么容易变，
世界上就不会有
“江山易改，本性难移”
这句话

下面那个post
真的真的只是for发泄用途

今早就跟妈妈好回了

anonymous:
太多人用anonymous了
拜托至少
让我感谢一下你们的留言
我喜欢
看到你们留言
不过我更喜欢
知道是谁在留意我的世界

我跟妈妈
偶尔会吵一吵
可是很快好回的
不用担心

反正你的世界我管不了

你们不爱听
只爱为我的动作
加上你们自己的定义

为什么我叹气？

你们的世界太复杂了
顾虑这顾虑那
我是为这叹气

却被说成
因为要帮你做东西而叹气

只因为
两个对话
同时进行

结果
你不好受
我不好受
这样好吗？

孩子
就没有发言的权利吗？
解释就是驳嘴吗？

连听一听我们的声音
都不能吗？

对不起
我需要一个管道发泄
你自己也知道
那种苦

一天里面
有两个人
为我的动作和表情
加上自己的定义

你们感受到那种感受吗？
我明明不是那样想
我却必须要那么想
只因为你们觉得
我是

一天里面
你做了多少个错误的判断？

我的眼镜在你的冲凉房
不代表我戴隐性眼镜睡觉

我叹气
被你定义成
是因为我不愿意帮你做事情

我
没有说话的空间吗？

children learn what they live
when i get to learn not to explain for myself
my heart will walk far and far and even far away from you.
and i wont bother what you want to claim me as.
it's ur business i cant help it

你们曾经说
孩子应该听父母的话
就像下属对上司一样
对不对都要听
是不是都要是

你不会觉得这样很可悲吗？
家庭关系要像社会那么复杂
家人之间不可说出自己的想法
不可悲吗？

之前的post我没有不爽
可是现在我很不爽

我试着说服自己
不能去kuantan罢了嘛
多少孩子饭也没得吃

我试着说服自己
误解而已嘛
多少孩子没有父母的疼爱

我还是很不好受

为什么
世界上要有那么多
miscommunication

=.==.==.==.=

今天早上.......
我发梦!!!!!
我很喜欢发梦的咯~
因为不用读故事书都有故事看...
终于有梦发了~~~~~

可是发梦发到一半....
又有事情发生了~=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=
妈妈问我是不是戴着con睡觉...
我就指着我脱出来放在那里的con，继续发我的梦~
她又看不到，重复问了几次~

我的梦啊！
我无奈无奈超无奈地stop了我的梦，
起来跟她说，我的con到期了不用洗~~~~~~~~~~!
又睡回去~
没梦了！

阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿嗄阿~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我死命睡回去~
钢琴课完了又睡回去
没有梦啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~！

以后睡觉要放一个牌子

请勿扰人清梦

我没有不爽-.-

。。。

我18岁了
我不能去这里不能去那里，
不能跟cyan他们去sabah trip,
不能跟他们去langkawi,
不能跟ivy去香港，
不能跟melissa去kuantan...
什么都不能...

假期终于要到了
却哪里也不能去

我不明白
当跟我同岁数的他们不需要问父母同意时
为什么？

post这篇东西的同时
我的thyroid gland 正在 stimulate 一些弄到我喉咙很辛苦的东西

算了
假期在家里做猪算了
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我
真的
很不甘心

我没有

我，很dissociative identity disorder...
我可以很吵，很吵，很吵....
也可以很静，很静，很静....

可以笑成一团
可以目无表情

可以好奇心超重
可以理得你都傻

可以说很冷的笑话
可以一整天脸臭臭

可以对你很衰衰到像巫婆
可以对你很好好到像___ (自己填充）

可以像一堆烂泥
可以像过动儿
随着环境改变
随着心情转变

在help里面，
我不知道为什么，
从来没有像昨天跟思睿一起那样笑过~
看到viyi会发自内心地笑，
考到好成绩会会心一笑~
可是也没有常常笑~
尤其是，在那一gang里面~

在那里，
我总是听众~
听他们讲话，跟着他们笑~
不然就自己一个在那里发呆~

他们觉得看到我每天很stress up,
或者觉得我很emo~

如果有一天我有机会睡到饱饱
我就有精力对大家笑，问好~
大家就会很奇怪为什么敏惠今天那么开心
其实只是我没有懒惰笑罢了~

我生出来是这一幅很严肃的脸
如果没有笑就那种臭脸

我很懒惰跟你们解释我没有心情不好~
没有人规定心情好一定要show出来给人家看
没有人说心情好一定要笑
没有人说只有心情不好才可以不笑

我知道一直笑一直笑的人很讨喜~
只能说很可惜我不是那种人~
要一直笑我的笑肌会很累~
我不是柜台小姐，空姐~

我很会狡辩，
可是我不敢读law
因为sejarah就够要我命的~
况且狡辩废话我厉害jeh~
正经事我不懂~

今天废话到这边~
拜拜~

use of words

积阴德 跟 积福
意思差不多
可是

两个都在褒义跟贬义的极端

我终于了解为什么cyan和采奕他们以前不喜欢那个（我不懂他的名）
就在他不小心犯回同样错误的时候~

我和kelly同时间用garfied眼对望.
冷汗直飙~
积阴德？

那个同学，
拿着饥饿30的卡叫我们捐钱
说服我们同时，我们也在说服他帮我们买食物
他那一句积阴德
真的很经典~

我有一点点想问他
是不是受华文教育的？

拿着慈善机构的卡，说出骂人的话~
即使我明白他是无心的，
心里除了狂笑，还是狂笑~

dating sheruey my darling...

despite having the hectic schedule in the below post,
i've decided to take a risk to gamble with the time.

sheruey is having holiday now, when i was still suffering in such.... whatever...
7pm, i've just done my english essay, ONLY....
force myself to pass up english essay b4 going out, in case anything happens...
we went to desa park city to have dinner.

chat and talk and listen to stories and chat and eat, until i'm so so full.
then we walked to the playground.
they got lots of fun things there....

i will like to play.......
the spinning duet!!!
i call the thing the spinning duet, because the fun part is when there is two player.
we spin and spin and spin, shouted and yelled in high pitch...
she yelled for help hoohoo~
it's quite dizzy, but i still lurve it....

the 2nd thing i will like to play is....
the monkey rope? simply give it a name.
hahaaa i admit i laopeh in climbing the rope....
it's fun i'll like to sit high up on it to chat with you.
the moonlight is nice, decorated with some shiny stars.
it'll be so nice if we can spend more time there....

hmm about the big round swing....
it's lot more dizzy... and the swing ate my hair.... ><"

after that went jusco max value,
sheruey belanja me a bottle of yoghurt yoghurt i lurve youghurt....
=)

after all we went home separately, time is 10 smtg pm.
i feel much more relax, even though the tough time is not over yet.
i've not started to post smtg in the forum, i've not even started to do slides and prepare draft for tomorrow's english presentation.
but i just feel very comfortable.....

i just need her so so much~
very happy and very lucky to have you.
eventhough we cannot see each other that often,
our love to each other doesn't fade.
love her more than i did.
my soul mate.

schedule x( + x)

20/7- argumentative essay draft 1 =S
- say smtg in the forum o.o
21/7- advance english presentation x(
25/7- microeconomic presentation :'(
27/7- argumentative essay draft 2 =X
1/8- critical thinking skills booth x'(
2/8- malaysian studies and advance english exams
4/8- critical thinking skills exam
5/8- introduction to business exam
6/8- microeconomics exam
7/8- IM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) x) =D
24/8- result's out? I HOPE TAT NOTHING FAIL... N-O-T-H-I-N-G
25/8- back to busy life...

=l

麻木了~
厌倦了~
开心不起来
放松不下来
勤力不起来
生气不上来

完完全全没有动力了

我真的只想让你感受
我的感受

那时的我活得很辛苦
自己一个人干着急
却也没办法做些什么

每次事情过了，我都会把它忘了
一次又一次地道歉
再附上希望
再一次失望
无言

不懂怎样再面对你们了

现在，
除了放假，思睿，放假，
什么也不想~

补充一下
比佩仪高又被佩仪瘦的meibo
她成了我kiss人的对象

以前，我每次和思睿kiss,
都给后面那两个讲是lesbian...
x)

gratitude~

what can i want more?

i've met a person.
who had suffered from breast cancer, lung cancer and bone cancer,
with marriage problem,
and her money was gone tipu by net fren...
life's been difficult, how tough is she?
it's beyond my limit.

we never appreciate...

Help version of smkb fren @@ campur zapbalang

viyi vs sheruey
both of them lurve green,
both of them are cheerful,
both lurve to give everyone an animal identity
eg: edwin is sheep or goat yea?
eg: wenbin,sheruey said he look like chicken which the furs are dropped x)
both are most close to me in both schools
both are looked as 'rou rou de' in the eyes of guys.
but i always dun think that they're rou rou lorh guys u like bamboo izit?

meibo vs peiyi
both are THIN and tall.
like bamboo x)

shuling vs lueihann
they always give me 安全感，
but i like lueihann more
i missss her body.... sounds so A horh?
yalorh long time din hugg u ady larhhhhx

yewchong vs shintat
hmmm sorry to both of u
errr they're both quite irritating
but yew chong changed alot?
at least he didnt crap so much dy...
=)

lots more to be discovered???
grrrrrrr....

me always 自闭 in everywhere...
me duno how to socialize with fren...
me always give ppl sien sien look...
me always looking forward to go home...
me always give james fierce fierce look...
me have been lacking of sleep for days...
me always talk n laugh loudly with close buddy...
me always got only one reaction to puchong fren----smile
me duno how to communicate....
they tot i duno how to talk x)
me kena say i 暗恋小雨 coz i always smile to her lolx
me shy shy de lorhx i duno how to talk when everyone around is not ripe u know...
me dun really like pink but everything is pink =.=
me used tell my mom everything...
and my bro always giv those irritating look coz i talk n talk n talk while we're having dinner or waiting for dinner to come

me very sienzzzz...
me hate ppl to fool me around especially mafan dao my parentss.
ill 反常 scold u bad words coz i hate to mafan my parents for unnecessary things ok?

do u rmb once 学海 got a girl's photo...
stating there look like 小雨 in 不能说的秘密？
omg lorh the world is so small that lolx 原来 i know her @@
she really got a bit...小雨feel...
but she's more skinny...
mini 版小雨~

mommy im very disappointed lorh...
do u know the reason y i ask u for confirmation?
bcoz u all always change ur mind...
always always change change change....
im very disappointed @@"

sorry recently i only blog when im moody.-.-

tagged by wc.

1. the last person to tag you is?
wenchern

2.what is your relationship with him/her?
cousin lorh both got surname loo with chinese surname 罗~
kinda unique rite since loo shud be 卢 and 罗shud be loh...
but when we're in standard 1 and we told teac our reason for absence is bcoz our grandpa pass away, de dumb dumb teac look like dun trust us... saying “那么巧两个的公公一起去世？”
lolx abuthen???

3.your 5 impressions of him/her?
1) playful 2) creative 3) smart 4) helpful x) 5) he cheers up ppl's life but there must be one who is the victim. eg chia yih shyuen XD

4.the most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
he let me throw a handful of sweet towards him ><"
or he let me bang my bag to his face ><"

5.the most memorable word he/she has say to you?
he say.........=="
"how're you?" lolx my memory damn lousy cant rmb any...
oklarh fuyoh he say i protect him a lot lolx consider memorable gua...

6.if he/she becomes your lover, you will...
lolx... i will be sakai by my parents? relatives?? lolx

7.if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
i will bite..... lolx

8.if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on...
cant think of any. -.- wc are u proud of it?? lolx

9.if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
he killed my family -.- never happen i hope?

10.the most desire thing to do for him now is?
ask bout his life now too. has been long time v din see n talk to each other eh?
heard bout a gal ooh but din get any extra info out of it.
my CNN nt tat punctual

11.the overall impressions of him/her now is?
nice person. always make ppl happy

12.how do you think people around you will feel about you?
lolx i gif diff ppl diff impression. try n ask james he will say im a fierce dog lolx,

13. the character you for yourself is?
duno @@"

14.on contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
hahaha im quite bad tempered

15.the most ideal person you wanna be is?
my mom? without nagging ...

16.for the person who cares and likes you, say something about them...
thx for caring and liking... gif u all a big fat hug k....

17. 5 people to the quiz
1) sue yin
2) lueihann
3) tis one i will tell her personally
4) chingyi
5) zongyong

18.who is number 2 having relationship with?
hmm tis must ask her. i dun go n dig for ppl's secret if they dun wish to tell yea? i dun hv any idea if she got any

19.is 3 a female or male?
female.

20.if 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
yea i dun need to answer too

21.how about 5 and 8?
5 and 8?zongyong who u want the 8 to be? u simply fit one in larh....

22.what is number 1 studying about?
good question. she's studying in MMU. about.....
i told u my memory sux.
forgive me!!!

23.when was the last time you had a chat with?
1) jz now in msn
2) last week using sms
3) today too
4) hmm few days ago? she had oral....
5)errr using msn too but...few days ago oso i think

24.is number 4 single?
gt to ask whether she accept the him alr or not...Xp

25.talk something abt 2
my dai gah jeh~~ nice person... she give ppl the 安全感. lurve to hug her and play vf her tummy....XD